Peace

Posted on September 14, 2005 by Margaret

Since beginning my new life with Alan my husband, I have found I am learning new experiences every day. I have been overwhelmed by the email I have received from web site viewers thanking me for channeling the information, and for the web site itself. I cannot take any responsibility for the web site, because this was given to Peter my former husband in 1996, but I do take responsibility for the channeled information on it. I had no idea how much information the Master had channeled since its conception until Alan pointed out to me how much information there was. I was so surprised! As I have said before, I just become the channel and then send it off, without checking it.

One of the main things I am learning at present is about living in the now. Living in the moment, and not worrying about the future, but letting the universe bring to me what it wants me to do. This is an awesome experience. There are days my Self asks me what I am doing? When nothing seems to be happening (a lot is actually happening, but not the way the Self wants it to be), it is interesting watching the Self whine and try to get its own way. I also watch as the Self is overtaken by the Higher Self and just has to concede defeat! There is a new challenge every day, but each time I become less and less interested in life the way I knew it and let go more and more to the spiritual. I knew I had changed big time when on the open day of the Seattle school I was asked to appear on radio and chose not to do so, but to let Alan and others take the floor. The old me would have craved the attention, would have gone on the show and basically taken over. I LOVE doing radio, but on this day, I knew it was not my time, or the right thing to do, and I stepped aside for others to become stars on this open day. I was so amazed that it did not bother me. I had channeled Maitreya the day before, and also had my time then. However, I could not believe I was not being involved on the open day, but it felt good to let others have their chance. I felt at peace, totally at peace with non-participation.

I thought I knew before what Maitreya calls “the peace that passes all understanding” but I can truly experience it now. I can sit for hours doing nothing and just experiencing peace inside. I do not crave conversation anymore either, rather I wait for the universe to tell me when to speak. I never thought that I, a Libran who is a social animal, would be thankful to be in silence most of the day. Life is certainly changing, and I am able to smell the roses now, instead of just passing them by as I used. I wrote to someone today and told them that I knew that if everyone could be like this, if everyone could learn to use their intuition, follow their hearts, and live their own lives, how amazing the world would be. I am visualizing every day, a world without the Self. It may not manifest in my lifetime, but I know it will manifest one day. I still enjoy life, but it is as if I am detached from life, and it is a wonderful feeling.

To many of you, reaching this point seems so terribly difficult. Please remember that 25 years ago, I was where you are, I felt the same way. I could never see how happy my life would be now. I worried all the time, had terrible fears about death, money, children, life itself, marriage, water etc. I do not think there was one fear I did not have. Then in 1992, the Master came into my life, and in the last 13 years, with his help and teaching, and many people mirroring for me what I did not want to see, I am a different person. DO NOT GIVE UP ON YOUR SPIRITUAL PATH. Yes, it is hard, nobody knows it more than me. Yes, I wanted to give up so many times! Yet, I just kept putting one foot in front of the other, facing the fear, facing the Self, and finally I have reached a place where I finally have found peace, a peace which I can never describe. If I can do it, you can also. I know you can do it. The rewards when you do, will blow you away!

Margaret McElroy