I still remember the abject fear I felt when I went to bed and felt people in the room. I even occasionally saw them. Nobody could tell me anything, and I was frightened to speak to my parents (or anyone else for that matter) about what was happening to me. Imagine being told to communicate and having no fear to speak with these energies. How awesome! I honestly wish I could have done that as a child.
From 1980 onward there was an enormous release of energy around the earth plane which affected children born at that time. Those children are now almost 30 years of age and are going through their Saturn return. Many of them have children of their own, and most of them encourage their children to use their gifts. Hopefully, there will come a time when we will all use this ability and understand the spiritual part of us rather than be in fear of it or run away from it. It has been suppressed for far too long, and once we begin to understand it and use it, our lives can be so much better. Puberty more than anything is the trigger for many children’s intuition because it is all hormonal, and it is the hormones that are triggered by the spiritual energy. After puberty, pregnancy, and then menopause also trigger the energy, but it is at puberty when the energy is at its strongest for spiritual work and development.
If you have a child going through puberty, are they becoming more aware spiritually or intuitively? One can buy books today which can help children to understand their intuitive energy, but there are very few classes available for children and young people to learn how to learn to do it, and also to understand it in an easy and open way without fear. It is time to change that and begin the teaching on a more global scale.
Just imagine if there were no suspicion or judgment of another, and if everyone knew why they felt the way they did about other people. We cannot have this, however, because not many people understand the energy of metaphysics and the why, and wherefore of these situations. We can only know this when we raise our vibration (or level of consciousness), but unless we can understand the basis of metaphysics and the why, how and what, we cannot move forward. So much energy has been given to becoming spiritual, and I must admit that at one time I was as guilty of this as others.
In the beginning, my idea of being spiritual was about being holy and – in a way – pious, sitting in the lotus position and chanting “Om.” Being a vegetarian and giving away the things I enjoyed. In fact being spiritual is just about being true to your self, accepting your own faults, and trying if possible to correct them. Not blaming anyone for your own mistakes, realizing that we are the creators of our own reality, and being fair to everyone – animals included – whether we feel they have done us wrong or not. It is about forgiveness, understanding, compassion and, more than anything, being at peace in our own silence and removing our emotional body so that we can see true meaning of life through our Higher Self. Our Self is always trying to divert us from our true purpose and life lessons. It is the Self which (in fear) creates the suspicion of others, bringing up past-life memories and, of course, always bringing up the emotions so that we become fearful of moving forward to our true destiny. How do I know this? I was there once where all these things happened. It has taken me years of working at letting go of all of that, and boy, do I feel better for it!
Was I sad to let the young person go? You bet I was and, more than anything, their mother also. However, I had to work with the person the young person had denigrated and been suspicious of. In my Higher Self I could see the truth of Maitreya’s words.
One of the spiritual lessons which is a part of raising the vibration is about letting go of judgment and judging another – of having no suspicion about someone else and no fear either. I have found over the years of my metaphysical life that often a person who has perhaps done wrong to someone in a past life will come back into their life again to assist them, perhaps by helping them in their career, or by assisting them financially. In this case, it was not just one person but two who were the chagrin of the young person (we never got around to the second person). Yet I knew in my Higher Self that they had both come into their life for the purpose of helping them.
I am living proof of this kind of help. Alan came into my life to repay a karmic debt from a past life in which he held me as a slave of sorts and mistreated me. In this life he has given me the life I should have had in that past life we shared. He has also done all he can to address issues he created in that life (such as low self-esteem and lack of confidence) which I had until he came into my life. Since his arrival in my life, he has made such an effort to help me become the beautiful woman I feel I am now, but which I could not see because of the past life with him and with a present-life experience with another person.
After the experience and shock with my grandson, I turned my energy to my granddaughter. My son told me that she would sit in her room on her cot when she was small and talk to people who did not seem to be there. I knew she was talking to those in Spirit. Unlike my grandson – who is a very strong individual – my granddaughter is so sensitive and fragile. One could almost blow on her and she would fall down. She reminds me of one of those fair weeds: when you blow on them they just disappear. My granddaughter almost disappears when you look at her. She is indeed very fairy-like. It said in her astrological karmic report that she has the most amazing imagination and psychic awareness. I am not surprised really as I was always “away with the fairies” when I was a child, and I also at that time was very much like my granddaughter is now – very sensitive and intuitive despite my not knowing what it was all about at the time.
Here is what the report said about my granddaughter: “Spiritual understanding in prior lifetimes enabled you to relinquish personal power to a Greater Will. Inspiration came to you in philosophical, psychic, or artistic matters. Your past-life memories give you empathy and psychic gifts. You may see these gifts as providing opportunity to assist spiritual advancement in others. Use your good judgment about the proper use of your special talents.” I could see her talents and also what she would do with them in the future when she is much older. She has 3 cousins who are also very much the same. One cousin – a year younger than she – is so intuitive that she “sees” spirit people, and another male cousin frightens his mother with the predictions he makes all of the time. For all of them the genes are all there, for they also have an intuitive grandma in addition to me.
As the people came forward to help us after the filming we did in Los Angeles, I felt so grateful that I had worked through the old energies of the past and am no longer stymied from moving forward. In previous blogs I have written about the times Spirit has been there for me – from the $50 experience, protecting me, providing what I needed (the large amount of money to create the Australian center), bringing people into my life to help me in so many ways, and so many more experiences. I knew I had passed those tests because I also had no more fear of people. Fear was my strongest issue, and there were many fears. I have spoken of these before in past blogs.
Beginning the spiritual path is wonderful. We feel as if we have come home on our journey, but we do not realize that we have so much we need to deal with before we can get the rewards. Just before my visit to the USA in 1995, Maitreya showed me (in a meditation) that I now only had 12 steps to climb as he stood beside a plane with the steps at his side. It seemed so easy compared to what I had gone through before. What he did not show me was that each step was like a giant block of granite about 5 feet tall! No, I am not joking. It felt that way as I climbed the stairs over the next few years! Boy, did I have a hard climb. I find it to be incredibly unbelievable that I have survived the experience. My Self still keeps thinking that something is going to happen to put me at the bottom of the ladder again, and it can do that. I just do not believe or accept it. While I do not, I do not invite anything into my energy to create that fear. Aha! I think I have learned something along the way!!
