When I lived in New Zealand and Australia, I used to belong to a group of people who were all in business or who worked independently in business. We met once a month to socialize and to raise money for a particular charity. I just loved going to this meeting and really missed it when I left. Once in the USA, life became busy and, over the last five years, there was no chance to do anything on a social level in the business community. Once again, I did not want for work and by now I had no worries over earning an income anyway. It was a nice place to be, and I was so thankful for it despite having a constant stream of work coming in. I could be my own Master and choose when I did work. It was an ideal place to be. The years of doing 40 readings a week, a newspaper column or two, a magazine column and radio show, plus a couple of past-life readings were behind me. The hard work had paid off and I was now able to choose my work schedule for myself.
Then a few months ago I received a letter inviting me to join a group called BNI (Business Networking International). To begin with, I wondered why the letter had come to me, but I went along to a meeting anyway. Within a week I became a member. I still did not know why I was there. I honestly could not see how I could work within the group as I am now a very private person and do not socialize very much. BNI is all about networking. However, after working with Spirit for so many years I know there are no accidents; everything happens for a reason. I had been trained to just go with the flow, and I did just that!
The one thing we have to remember more than anything is that Spirit does not do this to us, we do it to ourselves. Before we are born we know that we cannot get rewards until the debts have been paid or we experience what we need in order to move on from it. As a past-life therapist and reader, I am aware of past-life energy and how, often, it is many incarnations old. For instance, we may have been an alcoholic incarnation after incarnation, never dealing with the energy of why it happened and bringing it back life after life because of that unfinished business, In this incarnation we ask for the help of a Master teacher and, even then, we sometimes cannot move forward with that help. But if we do start a new life (or round of existence), no longer an alcoholic because we have dealt with the issues concerned and left them behind.
We have no idea how much we have deep inside of us from past lives. Someone has likened it to an onion and peeling back the layers. However, I will say now: it is just not one onion, but boxes of onions. The one thing I am grateful for (despite running away from the experience for 14 years) is that I got the opportunity to work out my past-life energy and to move on to a better life despite it being so painful and difficult to deal with. I took the assistance of a Master teacher, namely Maitreya, and his love and assistance/teaching certainly helped me to get through. I would not have done so without it. I have had a number of people in my life over the years who also asked for the help of a Master teacher who did not make it. They were able to speak with the Master and receive his wisdom and advice, have channeling on a regular basis, feel the energy and the love, but still they could not move forward. The Self is so strong.
Over the years I have seen some amazing things happen which have led people to learn the lessons they needed to learn, some of them really good things, but others really bad or what we would call bad anyway. We all know of people who have accidents and then find through the experience their “Aha” moment which changes their lives, or the person with an addiction who after rehab or giving away that addiction become counselors for others. Maitreya told me that we have many opportunities to learn on our own before Spirit intervenes and quoted to me my 14 years of fighting my gift and finally being brought to my knees with having everything I owned taken from me in a recession. It was the only thing which forced me to open the door and, of course, discover the wonderful gift I have which has enabled me to help many people over the last 20 plus years.
Each of us chooses the time a Master will intervene. For me it was the age of 36, and it was as if I was pulled into darkness – literally. I then had to change. I have written about this in my books and a previous blog. It is even worse if one is at a Saturn return. For instance, in my first Saturn return (which was at age 28/29) I left England for Australia and from the age of 29 had to learn some very hard lessons about many things. Thankfully, I learned the lessons and so at my second Saturn return at age 58, Saturn rewarded me very generously. Although I moved again from Australia to the United States and still had a few lessons to learn, it was not as hard as when I was 29. I just have to be careful that I do not go backward and into the old way. I somehow don’t think I will though. I recently went through a testing time and did not react the way I would have reacted many years ago. I think I have it nailed!
The interesting thing was that I never realized there was so much inside of me. Looking back I was so naïve, but that is how we think. I often wonder if I had known what I was to go through whether I would have gone forward. It is a question I just cannot answer. I was only shown what I needed to deal with, one issue at a time. As one issue was dealt with, another came up. The graduate student who asked the question has worked so very hard on herself since she came to me to study. I have been there to support her and help her since she graduated, and she recently became aware she now has to be her own Master and begin doing her work on her own without any support. I agreed with her. We talked at that time about an issue she thought she had dealt with but which came up to the surface again, and left it at that, but Maitreya’s energy (through me) created one more healing crisis as tears came to the surface again.
I did not realize this until a few days ago when we spoke about this and she asked me the question about whether it ever ends. I could sympathize with her. I wondered that so many times myself as I went through raising my vibration. I think that, if I had a dollar for every time I said I was not going on and did not want to do this work anymore, I would be a very wealthy woman now. It is not easy facing issues, especially if it means we have to change. The Self part of us wants to hang on to the old energy, whether it be fear, doubt, or something else. It can be very cruel in trying to stop us from moving forward.
One of my graduate students wrote me the other day. She was going through another healing crisis and thought she had dealt with the issue at hand. Her question to me was, “When will it ever end?” For most people their thought of spiritual development is all about instant change – an abracadabra, magic wand, or overnight experience. Go to bed one night, and wake up the next enlightened and ready to talk to God. Oh, if only it were like that!
I thought just like that in the beginning. After 7 years of training when I was told my training was over now and that I would be working with a higher consciousness in the future, I did not realize that I had just left kindergarten and was moving up into elementary school. My ego thought I was leaving college and going into my future career! I was in a way, but I had certainly not left the learning behind. It was just the beginning. I had chosen a Master to help me in this incarnation because, in a number of other ones, I had not managed to do it alone. I had worked for Spirit in prior lives but just could not do it on my own, so now I had chosen a Master to help me get rid of deep subconscious and conscious fear, conditioning over many incarnations, and to make me a stronger person.
In 1992 that learning began. It has been a journey of 18 years, and with the 7 years prior to 1992, 25 years altogether. Looking back it was not something I would wish on anyone, especially when it came to facing the fear I had – which was huge. It is interesting also that most of those who come to me for help, readings, or healing also have very similar fears to what I faced. As each fear was faced, another one would come to the surface.
So I have come to the end of this blog. Quite a lot of rambling, but I do hope you have learned something from it. We need to understand the world of Spirit as it is, not as a fairy story. I wondered why I got upset when I heard those who channel begin their channeling with “My beloved” and words to that effect. I realized that Maitreya never does that. Whenever I speak with him it is like speaking with a normal person, but the normal person I am speaking to is totally unbiased, has so much love (yet without being soppy as I say), and who has all the answers if only we will listen.
It is the same with those who write that they are the “chosen channel” of a particular Master. Nobody is chosen. We elect to work with a Master, but nobody is specially chosen to do this work. Maitreya has told me that people are not “chosen” to do this work because every soul makes its own choice and there is nothing special about being a channel. It is very hard work, takes its toll on the physical body, and contains its own lessons also. Saying that one is “chosen” to channel is like saying “I am above everyone else because I am chosen.” What a load of crap! Sorry, but I have to express that.
Anyone can be a channel, nobody is chosen, but some do choose to do it. However, the Masters will work with anyone who offers their service. Channels can be your child, your best friend, even your enemy on the earth plane. Their purpose is to help you to move on, change an idea, attitude, etc. However, as with listening to a Master, we do not want to listen much of the time. I am always wary of listening to the channeling of those who say they are chosen or who speak of “My beloved” when they channel because, to me, they are not channeling. Spirit does not and never has spoken to me like that!
