I cannot imagine the chaos if every government in the world said, “Speak your own truth.” In the world of Spirit, one does exactly that: speak one’s own truth. One cannot lie. But there is never anything negative spoken because there are no spoken words. All communication is done via thought and on a different level altogether from the earth plane. We have no emotional body when we die, nor is there a Self. It is the Self that creates the drama in conversations and which causes all of the problems. It is only after many years of being a drama queen, finally moving away from it, and seeing it as a waste of energy, that I can see how dramatic I was and how the Self manipulated that drama, even to the fact of telling lies to get its own way.
To be honest, I have difficulty imagining a world where there is no Self, or drama, or emotional body. I told Maitreya once that it must be very boring and dull, and he laughed at me. He told me that it is far from that and that one day I will see for myself. I am really looking forward to that day! Maitreya told me that one cannot lie after one has passed over, and that many of those who pass over find it very difficult to be stripped of that ability. It is only then that they can truly see themselves as they are without the outer layers of emotions that contribute to our life on the earth plane.
I know without a doubt that there is a ruling force, whether you call it God or something else. How else can I know what I know when I do readings? I go to the very core of the person and reveal things to the people I see that I could never have known. One woman told me that I knew her better than she knew herself! A man told me that he was skeptical of intuitive readings until he had his reading. He did not know what to do after having it.
We spend so much time living in the past – living with regrets for things we did when we did not know any better at the time. Once we do know, we can change, and change is usually very positive. But each soul has their own time for change. We cannot progress forward unless we can understand why we do things. More than anything, we need to let go of any judgment against ourselves. We are not perfect; we cannot be because we have a Self constantly hounding us with negative questions and answers. However, if we are truly honest with ourselves and God, we are truly being who we should be, not what people want us to become.
I am not afraid any more to speak my truth; it is as simple as that. I often watch people as Alan often speaks my truth for me. It is as if I am not there in the room. Often they cannot believe we are being so honest. It is the same with many different subjects, especially about sex. Alan and I have no inhibitions in talking about anything to do with sex. Ninety-five percent of the population is terrified of speaking about it. It is really interesting to watch people’s reactions as we begin speaking our truth about that subject. However, to be able to speak my truth quietly and clearly has brought a peace inside of me which I cannot describe.
Maitreya has said that we all need to speak our own truth, but how many of us do? Not only do I have peace inside of myself, I have more energy in my daily life and for the things I need to manifest. I am not bogged down with unspoken words I should have said, but never did. The next time someone asks you a question to which you need to give an answer, speak your truth. Yes! Speak your truth – do not hold back. With Love in your heart, say what you truly mean and would like to say, not what they want you to say or expect you to say. You will then be true to yourself. Not only that, you will be true to God, whatever you deem that energy to be!
I realized that, if I had spoken my truth with love in my heart (in other words, without anger and with conviction such as, “I hope you do not mind, but I cannot support you in this, it is just not what I believe in”), I would have escaped so much confrontation, negative energy, and being upset within myself. It was then that I began really being truthful in what I was saying. It was hard to begin with. I had been so used to telling a lie to most people when I was asked what I thought about something. But as I began being honest and speaking my truth, it became easier and easier to do.
It was then also that I began to see in people’s energy – in their aura – when they were not speaking their truth! It is a definite patterning in their auric field and is also accompanied by a “feeling,” a very distinct energy. My own lack of speaking my truth had actually masked my being able to see it in others. It was quite a revelation. I was able to watch people lie and see it in their auric field. I was fascinated and many times under my breath I said, “Liar.” I know now it was a terrible thing to do, but at the time it was so blatant to be able to see it. If I did happen every now and again to tell a lie, I was not able to live with it. It was as though not only did something inside of me know that I had told a lie, so did the higher energy I know as God. It was quite a revelation. Of course, when I was able to spend time with my spiritual teacher, he told me that I had spent many incarnations not speaking my truth. But he also pointed out why: most of the time it was about fear.
I had been doing readings for many years and in each reading I was able to tell people about themselves – information I did not know or could not have known. I knew the source of the readings – my friends in the Spirit world (but ultimately from the Source, or God) – but really never paid any attention to it. I never connected my own life with my work. But then I had an “Aha” moment when the two connected. I was talking to a friend who asked me a question relating to what I felt about something she was working with and I told her a lie. I said I supported what she did, but in actual fact I did not. To be honest, I said what I did because I did not want to upset her, and it was so easy to say “Yes.” I did not realize she would get together with another friend who knew how I really felt and who would tell her the opposite of what I had said to her.
Irately she came around to my home, wanting to know why I had said what I did if I did not support her. To be honest, since saying it the words had not sat comfortably in my body. I found myself restless, constantly thinking of positive things I could say relating to what she did, but I could not do so. Being confronted was intimidating. Not only that, I had not been true to myself. I had actually lied and I was not happy with myself for doing so! I lost a friend that day. Why had I not been true to myself? I spoke to my teacher, Maitreya, about this and he told me that 98% of the people on the earth plane do this. They do it out of the fear of hurting people, of getting caught up in something which would be too much to handle and, to be honest, in the hope that once an answer was given the person would leave and life would go on.
For many years I didn’t understand the words “Be true to yourself”. I do not believe in the God depicted by the Christian faith or an energy to be feared. To me, God has always been an incredible energy, one as a child I used to call, “my father.” He was like a confessor whom I would talk to in bed at night. I told him about my miserable life with a father who constantly berated me and said horrible things to me, and my mother who was downtrodden, browbeaten, and very unhappy. It was like being a pendulum rocking from side to side, never being able to settle in the middle and be still. The God I knew helped me to balance myself by allowing me to talk to Him each night and, in a way, purge myself.
For some reason I always believed in this energy and, many years later, I was able to feel this energy in my heart, an experience which changed my life forever. But in those early years of my life – as a child and even as a teenager – I was never true to myself and especially not true to God. I did not know it of course – we usually do not at that age – and some people never do all of their lives. It was when Maitreya came into my life in 1992 that I really began to feel God and also to learn to work with the energy of God, for that is what I see it as. I remember watching the film “The Nun’s Story” in my thirties where the Mother Superior of the convent tells a novice “Remember, you can fool yourself, but you cannot fool God,” but not being aware of its true meaning. Yet something inside of me resonated with that statement despite not understanding it properly.
As busy as I was, I could not see what was happening and then, as usual, Maitreya, my spiritual teacher (in response to a prayer for help with the knee) came in and showed me what I was doing. I could not believe what I had done so far. Then I had to change the situation. I was led to some natural tablets for the joints and bones. These began to help me and, as time passed, I was able to use the cane less and less. I do not know the final outcome of this issue, but I am now saying affirmations that my knee will go back to normal as it was. I am positive this will be successful now that I am aware of it. Of course, there are some who would say that my weight is a contributing factor, and I would agree, but without the weight I cannot carry the energy and so it has to be for the time being.
The observations over the years have been quite amazing. “Can’t Maitreya help you?” is the main comment I get when people see me limping and ask what is wrong with me. “Surely God can help you.” is another, along with many other similar comments. Yes! They can help me, but first I needed to want to heal myself and I could not see that it was my problem. It was all of my injuries over the years on that left knee. I had also had accidents and fell on my right knee. but of course that was not a problem. So why just the left knee? I did find after doing a trance channel session the knee was very painful, but it was only the blocked energy in the knee (a sabotage issue) which was creating the problem. Had it not been there, I would not have had the issue or the pain.
