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Posts Tagged ‘fear’
Monday, September 6th, 2010
The young woman whom I had given a reading was an incredibly sensitive young woman. She had needed to be held and loved, and when she had allowed someone to do that to her, she was “used,” in a way, and then discarded. I know, of course, that it was a past-life situation. Mine had also been a past-life situation, but it had not been easy for this very sensitive young woman, and she had done things similar to what I had done as a way of getting back. However, just like me, it did not serve a positive outcome; it rarely does.
In the last 42 years since my first daughter was born, I have had much opportunity to look at the way our emotions react and how we allow them to do so. We are all looking for love, every one of us. Some of us are lucky in that we get it from our parents. Others find a partner who feels the same way, but most of us live in relationships that are not two-sided. We stay in them for comfort, convenience, fear, but very rarely are we true to ourselves. As I aged, I came to the realization that I should have left my first husband 10 years prior to when I did. My second husband I should have parted 5 years before I left, but I did not do so because of fear. The first time I had young children. How would I cope? live? etc.? The second time I was comfortable. Everyone else could see the marriage was not working except me. However, it took 5 years for me to finally see it. With my second marriage there was no love really. It was a marriage of convenience, but I was so busy and so wrapped up in my life that it covered up the fact that there was no love. It is that also which often deceives us. We do not have love, so we work instead because it fills that hole which is waiting for something called love. With Alan, whatever love is, it is there and I no longer crave it.
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Tags: Alan McElroy, comfort, convenience, emotions, fear, love, Maitreya, Margaret McElroy, marriage, past life, reading, realization, relationships, sensitive
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Thursday, August 26th, 2010
The hardest lesson I have had to learn in raising my vibration is that each man/woman has their own truth, and we cannot change that truth no matter what we do or try. They have to change it and they cannot do so unless they are ready. As a child growing up, I had the truth of my parents and I lived that truth in fear, even if I thought something different, put it into action, and went against their truth. As I entered the workforce and left the home environment, I began to see another truth from those around me. This made the fear even worse because, I not only understood their truth, but found that it was my truth in a way. Then I married and took on 80% of my husband’s truth – while, of course, still battling the “real” truth of childhood and teenage years. I had children and, from talking to other mothers, found another truth. And so it continued through my life, experience after experience.
Then Maitreya came into my life and shattered my belief in truth by telling me that there is no truth because one man’s truth is another man’s folly. In other words, each person has their own truth, and as such, there is no correct answer. What I saw as truth was not someone else’s truth. He also explained to me that I cannot change their truth. I could try, but if they were not ready to change, nothing I could do would enable change in that person. Until then I had spent years trying to change people – from my days of being a Christian and wanting to educate people about Jesus, to my wanting to educate people about metaphysics, I had not managed to change anyone, yet I still persisted in trying to do so.
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Tags: Alan McElroy, change, experience, fear, folly, Maitreya, Margaret McElroy, metaphysics, truth, vibration
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Wednesday, August 25th, 2010
It also amazes me how many people are in a job they hate, yet rather than open a new door they continue on in the job they are in and eventually have health problems because they are not at ease in their career. Rather than open a door to begin to study a new career if they have not done so already (and most have not), they plod along until eventually they create dis-ease, then full blown disease within themselves. I have actually seen people die because they would not make the changes they were capable of, all due to fear.
I am finally living my life’s purpose. I must say also that you are never too old to change. I had a 67-year old friend who had always wanted to do healing. Her astrological chart showed this was her true destiny. She had been a mother and grandmother but never worked. One day she came to classes I was teaching and learned how to heal. She found that she had (as I felt) a natural talent for healing and began using it part time. It gave her so much happiness to do this, and I know it kept her young and healthy. She is now almost 90 and still healing. I know she will make it to 100 and still be healing.
Are you unhappy in your career or job? Are you doing what you came here to do? You do not have to give up your job or career to open a new door. This can be done casually or part time in study and in working it (before one builds up a clientele) and then give up the old work one is doing. In closing, I wish to say that Maitreya, my teacher, taught me the fact that happiness is ours to create. Spirit does not do this for us – we do it. When we find our life purpose, we find our passion, and then one is truly happy. So many people never find their passion or their life destiny, and it is such a shame because they bring themselves around for another incarnation just as I did. I am so glad I found what mine is and that I am fulfilling it. Not only that, but I am truly happy in what I do. So many people tell me that I work so hard, but I do not feel that I do. It is not work for me; it is my true destiny and passion.
Tags: Alan McElroy, astrological, career, change, chart, create, destiny, dis-ease, disease, fear, happiness, happy, healing, health, incarnation, job, Maitreya, Margaret McElroy, passion, problems, purpose, Spirit, talent
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Monday, August 23rd, 2010
I found it quite amazing that, until I went into the metaphysical arena and began to work it, my life was very hard financially. However, once I opened the door and stopped fighting – although I did not become an instant millionaire – my life improved financially, and I certainly had more than I had before. Life was no longer a financial struggle. I had not been living my true life purpose prior to that. It never ceases to amaze me how many people are not living their life purpose. They think they are happy just as I did – being a Mom and, as I called myself “Housewife Superstar” – but I was not happy, really, and it was not until I opened the door to metaphysics that I realized how much I love doing it and why had I not done this before? DUH!
Everyone who knows me knows I am extremely stubborn. It can be a drawback, but most of the time that stubbornness enables me to do things the right way – or as I call it, Maitreya’s way. Over a quarter of my life was wasted, not working my talent or my life destiny, but when I did open the door, boy did I love doing it! As I let go of the fears, lack of confidence, low self esteem, and other insecurities, I became more able to manifest what I needed in my life for my career. I realized that it is these issues that stop us from moving forward.
I would like to think that, because of our reading astrology charts on our radio show on Thursday nights, we have assisted many souls to find their true purpose in life. One case that stands out is that of a young girl – still in high school – who was going to become an orthodontist. She felt by doing that she could make a lot of money. However, she was highly creative and I could see that. I was able to talk to her about this and assist her to see that she needs to use that talent. We talked about the media and advertising, and she finally made a choice to study that in college rather than be an orthodontist. She recently left college and immediately got a job with one of Seattle’s top advertising agencies. She told me that she told herself she would get the job without any doubt, and she did.
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Tags: Alan McElroy, astrology, confidence, creative, destiny, fear, financial, insecurities, Maitreya, manifest, Margaret McElroy, metaphysical, metaphysics, purpose, reading, self esteem, stubborn
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Sunday, August 22nd, 2010
All of her life this woman had fear of what happened to her and worried about it to the point where it manifested in her life. I knew from the past life of the woman I had been that I, too, had drawn into my life court judgments and trials because I had a fear of people saying I was a fraud. In this life I had the same fear.
In my readings I see so many people who should be, for instance, writing, going into politics, or into the public arena in their careers but who fight it, run away from it, or just will not do it. Their life purpose is not attained, their destiny not even attempted. They do not realize that if they do not do it, they will be back in another incarnation to do it once again. Their life may not be the same, but the lessons will be. It may not be the same people, but the same scenarios will be set up to test them and help them to face their fears and insecurities.
Many do not even realize they have talents, I was one of those. Before I became a reader I was constantly being told by readers that I am artistic. I could not see that or believe it. I could not draw or paint; yet later in life I found that I am artistic. Not only that, I am also a creative person. There is nobody born without one or many talents. Even the hobo begging on the corner of the street has a talent. Usually it can only be seen in an astrological chart, but many people do not believe in them. However, I truly believe that, in the future, more people will become aware of the alternative methods of finding out what we came here to do.
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Tags: Alan McElroy, creative, fear, fraud, incarnation, insecurities, lessons, Maitreya, manifest, Margaret McElroy, purpose, readings
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Saturday, August 21st, 2010
While doing a reading for those who came to see me, I noticed in their energy that probably 85% of them had an “Aha” moment, a recall, or what I told them made sense to them. It tied in with things they were doing or had done in the past. I was very grateful for that because I knew I was telling the truth. The one thing I realized more than anything from my own growth was that the woman I had been had no confidence in herself whatsoever. She was a sham, to be honest, deeply insecure and frightened of being called a fraud. Her fear had drawn it into her energy. I was so glad I was getting rid of my fear. It manifests if one does not deal with it.
I remember when living in New Zealand reading about an 80-year old woman who had been raped by a young man. She had created a fortress for herself according to her family, because all of her life she was in terrible dread and fear that she would be raped. Her husband had died early and she was all alone. She had built a very high fence around her property, had 5 bolts on each door, window locks, and did all she could to be protected in her home. One day, she had to put out her trash and, as a very nimble 80 year old, went out to do that. She opened her gate, put out her trash and came back in again. However, she forgot to lock her gate – perhaps something distracted her. She was busy in her vegetable garden when a young man looking for money saw the open gate, entered, saw her in the garden and saw the back door still open. Very soon she had been raped, robbed and left for dead. Thankfully, only a few hours later she was found by her daughter who had come to visit her mother.
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Tags: Alan McElroy, confidence, energy, fear, fraud, frightened, growth, insecure, Maitreya, manifest, Margaret McElroy, reading
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Friday, August 20th, 2010
When Maitreya came in, that is when I discovered who I had been and, once I did that, he told me what I should have done in that past life and did not. Hence, I was back again to try again. I had to face so much fear which this other incarnation had created. It was not easy, but with Maitreya’s help I was able to do it little by little. As the years passed he enabled me to move forward away from who I had been, and as I did so, I discovered a new woman inside of me, someone whom I did not recognize as I grew. It was so interesting watching myself unfolding as the layers of fear and angst were removed. I gained confidence and self esteem which I had not had in the past life. Although the person I had been showed the world she was confident and fearless. Indeed, she was not that way at all.
I read many books depicting this person, and each book revealed another trait or personality disorder which I needed to work upon. This woman smoked incessantly, and I too did the same until the age of 46 when I finally let go of that habit. It was fascinating watching the changes take place within me, but even more, it was uplifting to know I had done it. As the years passed I slowly left this other personality behind and became a different person from what I had been in the past. Finally, I became the person I am today. With my ability to see the past lives people have had (and may I say this did not come until I was clear of the old energy from the person I had been), I began to see in others around me the same traits, the same problems they had in past lives – which they had brought with them again into this life – to be addressed again and cleared away. My frustration came in the form of people not being able to see it within themselves.
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Tags: Alan McElroy, angst, changes, confidence, energy, fear, fearless, incarnation, Maitreya, Margaret McElroy, past life, problems, self esteem, should, traits
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