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The Word “Spiritual”
Tuesday, July 13th, 2010
What Do I Do? – Final Words
Monday, June 7th, 2010I know my life will never be free of decision making. After all, I am a Libran, and one trait that Librans have is their inability to make decisions. In the past (as I have said many times), my decision making was filled with emotion and tension – not to say an Oscar winning performance each time. Now it is almost an effort to react to making a decision. I often cannot be bothered for a start but, if I do, I move into the Higher Self and am not swayed by emotion any more. The Higher Self enables me to see the way it is meant to be without fear or other emotions. I also know that these people who I have to make decisions about (or the decisions themselves) are part of my growth and learning. It is helping me whether I believe it or not.
I no longer have fear or can be swayed by fear, which is what that young person at the beginning of this post expected me to do. Maybe he came into my life as a test – to test me to see if I would go into fear. I did not. Astrologically, that day in my transits it stated that I would be defending someone whom I held in high regard, so it was all meant to be anyway. However, the choice I made could have gone two ways, one to the young person, the other to the other person. I know I made the right decision. How do I know? It felt right and I felt at peace after I had made the decision.
If you make a decision and it haunts you after you have made it, it is probably not the right decision. We are all going to ask of ourselves, “What do I do?” at some point in our lives. The next time you ask yourself this, try to look at the issue without emotion – without fear, doubt, and other emotions. You will be amazed at how much better the decision is.
What Do I Do? – Continued
Wednesday, June 2nd, 2010For me, it was very hard because Maitreya had also brought the young person into my life to help us. We were all supposed to work happily together, but as I believe it and have seen it happen so many times in my life and others’ lives, a past-life memory came to the surface and created fear or suspicion in the young person. Interestingly enough, in the past I would have been torn in two over what to do and what decision to make over the issue. What would I do this time?
This time I was clear in my thinking, I had no doubt whatsoever. I chose to have no fear and not to go with the suggestions and suspicion of the young person. I knew what I had to do, and it was so clear. I made my decision. I was able to do that because I had cleared away the emotional body. In the past, my emotions had been the issue every time I had to make a decision. Not only did they create a serious problem for me, I often ran away from such experiences.
Often, we know what we have to do but cannot do so because we are concerned about so many things: What will the person think of me? What if I hurt them? What if they get angry? What if …, etc? We are so concerned over these issues that we often cannot see the true meaning of the experience and what we should do – our own truth so to speak. For many people it creates problems as they try to balance the way they feel and their fear of doing something wrong. Without the emotional body there in front of me, I was finally able to make a decision based on my Higher Self.
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Raising the Vibration 2 – Continued
Friday, March 12th, 2010Maitreya told me that, the more I raised my vibration (in other words the more I released the fear, doubt, worry, concerns, old programming – most of it put there by family and life experiences – from within me) the more sensitive I would become. At that time I could not imagine it being any worse, but it did become worse – but not in an unpleasant way. He taught me to detach emotionally, which is something I had not been able to do in many incarnations. He told me that fear stopped detachment and that, once we release the fear, we can then detach and look in as a spectator. I found this an amazing experience to go through, to be able to look into a situation without getting emotionally involved. I was, of course, still releasing people’s emotions through crying on a regular basis, but when I was confronted with an emotional situation myself, I found that I was able to detach emotionally and look into the situation and see it was not as frightening as it had originally seemed.
As the years passed I did this more and more. My biggest moment of awareness of this was when I did the UN channeling in New York in 1999. This was, in effect, my last big issue and being able to detach certainly enabled me to do it. I could not have done it without being as detached as I was. I had to detach. The group I was speaking to had invited guests in the past such as Marianne Williamson, Kryon, and other such well-known metaphysical people. I was an unknown from New Zealand at that time. It was terrifying for me at the time, but being detached helped me do it. It was another milestone in raising my vibration and, once again, I became more intuitive and more sensitive.
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Lost Souls – Part 2 Continued
Tuesday, January 19th, 2010So to the viewer who wrote and asked, I hope you gained an education from what I have written in this blog. It is not easy taking souls over and it can, as I said, be very exhausting, but to have a soul like the one from the Arizona say, “Thanks, Lady” means everything to me. He did not know who I am; he just saw the Light, was led to the Light, and then knew he was going through my body. Some do not even know they are going through a body.
I have always taken them through the body from day one. Others just help them toward the Light. In our previous house we had a vortex in our lounge room (where Alan’s piano was) where souls would come in and be taken home. We had 8 fountains in the house, and the fountains provided the water (along with our energy) for the souls to go home. We had some wonderful experiences, as did others who came to the house, which I am writing about in my next book, Stories Along The Way – Book 2. Vortexes are very strong spiritual areas where Spirit can take souls home. Some souls like me though, actually take them through the body.
Not many people know that when they die they actually leave their body from inside their own body. They leave through their crown chakra at the crown of the head. It is amazing to see the energy leave if one can see it. People often ask me, “How can you see this?” To do this, one needs to raise one’s vibration. The negative energy of fear, doubt, low confidence/self-esteem, and other emotions stops the person from seeing anything on a spiritual level. However, as one does raise their vibration, one can open up the intuition and actually begin to see things such as auras. It also depends on what level of consciousness you come in on in this life.
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Resolutions – Final Chapter
Saturday, December 26th, 2009Your astrological transits for a whole year cost very little. To have them and to be able to see on a daily basis what is happening energy-wise is the most important thing you can have in your life. When looking at my transits and looking at the planets and how they are interacting with my life, it is very comforting for me to know that it was meant to happen or that it could have been worse had I not had this knowledge.
Alan tells everyone that I live my life through astrology, and in a way I do. I never visit anywhere without checking the relocation information before I go. I will even cancel a trip if it does not feel good energy-wise. I choose my next year’s energy each year by finding the best place to spend my birthday. This year it was London, next year it is Nebraska. If I want to know how my emotions are going to be reacting each month, I do a Lunar Return which then helps me see where my emotions are being affected at any given time. I am not a fanatic, but I do use astrology whenever I can to help make my life better. It is bad enough dealing with the Self each day. At least with some help I can deal with it a little better.
I no longer make any resolutions and the more I learn about letting go of emotions, letting go of worry, doubt, fear etc., the easier it is for me to deal with the Self. I thank God for the education I have been given by Spirit to enable me to understand the use of astrology. This year I do have something I want to achieve but I am not telling the Self. Oh, no. This is being kept within myself until I am ready to do it. I have a better chance of doing it then. LOL!
Just Stuff 2 – Final Chapter
Saturday, November 14th, 2009So, are you one of those people who thinks it should be free, or are you one of those who feel a laborer is worthy of their hire? Yes, there are some people out there who should not be charging or accepting a fee, but unless you have some karma or something to learn from them, they will probably not come into your energy.
As soon as I started to live comfortably metaphysically I began putting back spiritually. That is how I came to be able to do what I have done. My past partners have not always shared my vision or wanted to help me, but I have done it anyway, with or without their help. My present husband shares my vision and my dreams and has also shared his abundance. I get e-mails every day from people who write that they cannot afford my services but will pay one day or in the near future. In the beginning I could not refuse but now I do. I have to. If I did not I would be inundated with work with no exchange for the energy. As Maitreya has said; “A laborer is worthy of his/her hire.”
If we give a service – no matter what it is – we are entitled to be compensated. It is the law of the Universe unless it is your karma to have it or do it for nothing. How do you know if this is so? It is ingrained so deeply in your heart, without fear and with a “knowing.” It happens very little, but when it does, one does know. I do know one thing, I can return to Spirit knowing without any doubts I have done what I came to do and helped many souls on the earth plane. It is a good feeling, knowing I did it. Despite my fears and doubts, I was able to create a healing center and help many souls along the way. It is a relief to know that. I am also glad I put a worth on myself – so very glad.
