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Posts Tagged ‘depressed’
Sunday, February 28th, 2010
One thing I do know is that it does get to a point where one can go for months – sometimes longer than that – without being bothered with the deep subconscious issues, because most of them have been dealt with. This happened to me in my 61st year. I went nearly a whole year without anything coming to the surface. At that time the Self pulled out one of the pockets it had hidden away. I was preparing for change once again, and I should have known the Self had a surprise for me. However, this time I was so used to this happening that I did not give it any energy and, when it did happen, it did not affect me as much as in the past. In fact it almost passed without notice.
Of course, as one is letting go of the dark, old energy which has not been dealt with prior to it coming out, one lets in more light. That light enables one to become super intuitive, with more healing energy. One also feels more energetic and alive. Of course, when you are facing the issues one needs to, one can cry, get depressed, and become very negative. If one can face this though and not give it any energy or succumb to the Self, it makes it a lot easier to deal with. For most of us, the issue began many incarnations ago, and we have been struggling for incarnations to free ourselves from this energy, not being able to move forward until it is cleared. It is why we need the help of a Master to remove it. I have said many times, I must have been a sewer pit with the amount of stuff I had to clear away, but I am almost there now, much better than I was after 25 years of working on myself, going forward 3 steps and backward 2 steps. It has been a long journey and at times very tiring.
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Tags: Alan McElroy, change, cry, dark, depressed, energetic, energy, healing, incarnation, intuitive, issues, light, Maitreya, Margaret McElroy, negative, Self, subconscious, tiring
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Sunday, February 7th, 2010
One of my graduate students wrote to me recently and asked if it was necessary to suffer so much. She finished her study with me in 2008 (I believe it was) and since then she has been working at raising her vibration. She mentioned that since doing so she has been depressed, tired, and lethargic at times, has highs and lows in energy, and has done a great deal of crying. I remembered back to my early days of opening to Spirit and what I went through then. I honestly thought that, once I had done some training, I would then be so high in vibration that I would be able to do anything. How wrong I was. From day one of beginning the path of metaphysics, it was hard going all the way. I learned about suffering very much because there are many ways to suffer when one opens the door metaphysically.
When I began my path, I really had nobody to communicate with after my teachers went back to England from Australia. It took some time before new teachers came in and, during that time, it was quite scary because I had no reference point, nobody to talk to regarding what I was experiencing at the time. What I was experiencing were panic attacks so severe that I am surprised I got to work every day. As my chakras opened up it affected my whole glandular system which, in effect, unbalanced my whole hormone system. Each of the seven major chakras connects to a gland in the physical body which, in turn, produces the hormones in the body. As the high spiritual energy came in, it worked at releasing past-life energy which had been trapped for many lifetimes in the etheric body in the chakras. This, in turn, really upset the hormones in the physical gland system, making them very unbalanced.
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Tags: Alan McElroy, Australia, chakra, depressed, energy, England, gland, hormone, lethargic, Maitreya, Margaret McElroy, metaphysics, Spirit, tired, vibration
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Friday, December 25th, 2009
As I wrote earlier, it is not easy to deal with the Self. You only really deal with it when you die because it does not go with you into the realms of Spirit. The memory of what it has done does so but not the Self. It is a fixture of the mental body part of us in the physical body. Even though I have not got rid of it completely, I do understand it and at most times can deal with it – even like today, the day I am writing this blog. I am away from home in another town quite a distance from my home. I am in a hotel room and have none of the comforts of home. My Self is not happy. When it is not happy it bellows loud and clear – which it did today.
I woke up depressed. On checking my astrological transits, I discovered that this depression was possible. The stars were in alignment to create the situation if I did so, and my Self did it with a loud speaker. It was just waiting to happen. Thankfully, once I saw that this was possible, I changed the energy and began to think of all of my blessings – how lucky I am to have what I have, to have Alan, my work etc. Before long the depression was gone. The Self did not win this time. However, had I not seen with my own eyes the astrological transits, I would not have been able to fight it, and I believe I would have gone down even further, and it would have lasted for a couple of days. This to me is where having astrological knowledge is an asset and a “must” for anyone on the metaphysical path. Without that knowledge I would never have recognized it.
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Tags: Alan McElroy, astrology, depressed, energy, Higher Self, Maitreya, Margaret McElroy, metaphysical knowledge, metaphysics, Self, Spirit, stars, transits
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Thursday, December 24th, 2009
One needs a great deal of energy to fight the Self. It is a strong energy and, once it starts doing its work, it is not easy to deal with. It waits until we are worn down, tired, and lacking energy before it strikes. When this happens to me I have no access to the Higher Self, so it always seems to bring me down to my knees. During that time I am depressed and fighting the negative ideas and feelings it is throwing at me. It is very hard to conquer it when I am like that. Of course, eventually the Higher Self part of me comes in and gives me the energy to deal with the Self, but not before some damage is done and it has had a good laugh at my lack of control. It does not matter what level of vibration you are at either, the Self is there.
I recall an article I read about the Dalai Lama who was asked by a reporter whether he ever gets angry, and he said “Yes.” He told a story of how he loves to feed the little birds in his garden from his table, and the big birds come and try to stop them. He said he gets very angry when this happens, and actually has a shotgun which he shoots into thin air and tries to frighten the big birds away. Of course this is a Self ploy – bring in the big birds to spoil the day – but it is nice to know that even the Dalai Lama has Self problems and is capable of being angry with the big birds. None of us can escape from the Self. Once again, if one is stressed and tired one cannot deal with the Self at all. Yet most of us do not know how to deal with the Self. Even though I have learned how to do it, I still go backwards when I am tired!
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Tags: Alan McElroy, angry, birds, Dalai Lama, depressed, energy, Higher Self, Maitreya, Margaret McElroy, Self, shotgun, stressed, tired
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