I must rephrase the last statement in this blog. I actually chose, because of Alan not being comfortable with the situation, not to stew on it. He did not stop me, I allowed myself to be stopped by my Self. For me, Maitreya had spent years telling me that, if I did not complain quietly and clearly, how would people know there was a problem? How could things be changed? Alan said things would not be changed, but at least if I wrote or spoke and addressed myself, I would release the energy of frustration which tended to explode inside of me if I did not release it. Far better to speak my truth or write it than have that happen.
In MY truth, I believe things can be changed. I have to learn to go with my own feelings, not be frightened or concerned about others truth. I knew as always that Maitreya was correct. He has never been wrong, and so I have made a decision: no more Leo Moon explosions. It is a waste of energy and also very exhausting to go through.
The day after I wrote the letter, suddenly everything fell into place in the kitchen. Everything seemed to come together, and I was able to see the kitchen in its full glory. As I write, the final touches are being put into place by those who know what they are doing. By the evening of writing this blog I should have a kitchen sink and water to wash the dishes. I am sure that in the future I will find myself renovating a kitchen again, and I am sure I will be severely tested again. However, I have the solution now and will no longer allow the Leo Moon to react the way it did. I have to now try and teach this to others. As for Alan, well, he said to me the other day that perhaps he should complain, and I feel he is starting to soften on that subject. One thing I can say, it is far less stressful writing a letter/email – or speaking quietly and clearly one’s truth – than bottling the energy up inside and not releasing it. So much better!
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