Why do we deny our passion, either in not giving it the time to learn it or we deny it totally? It is that dreaded word “fear“ again – the fear that people will laugh at us, at what we do. We do not believe we have the talent (like me) and many other reasons, but there are many excuses I have heard over the years. I once thought of making a list and sending them to the Readers Digest or some similar periodical, like one does insurance excuses because some of them have been so funny and some very sad! In my case it was an art class in 1960 where we were told to draw a picture of a woman. I did the portrait and thought it looked wonderful. The teacher did not; she ridiculed my picture in front of the whole class, made fun of me as she said it looked like a prostitute (the woman had make-up on), then ripped it up into pieces in front of the class also. I was so hurt, embarrassed and deeply wounded. I believe the artistic part of me shut down because it did not believe it was any good. It did not open up again until 2005. I wonder what would have happened if the teacher had taken me aside after class and told me she thought it was a little “over the top” and perhaps I could not put so much make-up on the face; instead of embarrassing me in front of the whole class?
With my metaphysical delay for 14 years it was the belief God would never work with me, I was not good enough/clever enough etc., and also what people would think of me as then at that time metaphysical people were looked on with scorn, embarrassment, or fear.
Why are you denying your passion? One woman said she was 45 years old and too old. You are never too old. I was 58!
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